Autism has a separate world. Other people could not understand how a person with autism feels the world and on the other hand people with autism also could not feel life in the way that other people feel. It is an strong border which in both sides there is no knowledge about the other side. It makes autism more complicated and it is why we are far from reaching to a solution for autism.
But could we guess how autistic people feel in each moment? I would say it is an unbearable lightness. Or it could be said that it is unbearable softness of feelings. They often are in a soft and light mood but it is unbearable for them. They try to scape from this unbearable and unstable situation in most of the moments of their life. they isolate themselves or they turn from it to hard feelings such as anger, anxiety, etc (which I call it as soft to hard phase change).
This is my classification for how people feel in each moments. It is a kind of soft feelings, but this kind of feeling is annoying. This is an state in which our mind system could not use its potential. It is an starting point for mind system to get actions, but in autism mind system stop at this situation. many autistic may feel it, but they may or may not recognize it. When enough attention made, they could discover this “unbearable lightness of being”.
My words may look totally strange to people who may read this post. I may could not explain it in a sensible way and everyone has its own right to not accept and many will not accept. but I invite my very few readers just to have patience. In previous post I claimed that Autism is related to sexuality. I’m trying to present different strange parts of a puzzle and then look to the whole picture it will give us.